Friday, July 23, 2010

Religion.
Throw that word out and see how many people will get a bitter taste in their mouths.
Especially, if they're told that they are religious.
We want to believe that we believe something that can't be summed up in an organization.
I am so complex.
I am so unique.

So were those before us.

I will contradict myself a thousand times.
Because what I believe is a contradiction to human logic.
The kingdom is not this or that, it is an upside down world.
Religion, Peace, Human beauty, creativity, Science, Logic, Imagination can all exist on one plain.
Love is something severly abused, yet so powerful.

shalom.



Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Simple

Monks have always been a paradox to me.
I don't understand how being a Christian without interacting in the world could help anything.
But, on the other hand...
Maybe they have one thing right:
Shut up and stop trying to attract attention.
90% of the time we speak to merely distract.
This is a proven statistic found in the imaginary survey to gain weight in an argument. (circa 2007)
Simplicity is usually the means of finding the answer to all of our unbeknown problems.
Why am I so depressed?
Why am I so bored?
Where are all my friends?
This is an extreme parallel universe to live in with debt, with marriage, with children, with convenience.
For you have already signed up for something that you now have to pay for, provoking to work a job you don't necessarily want.
For you have someone you care dearly about, provoking a ways of constant communication for security.
For you have someone whose future you can protect, provoking a means or movement so that there education can be bettered.


We justify everything we do.
I AM not saying these are bad things to do.
I pay loans, a phone bill, and a car payment.
Justification is the logical way we can say whether something is a good idea or bad idea.
That is fine.
It can be used the wrong way, I believe.
There is a way to live without all of the conveniences in life.
In a rich country it is hard to find, for convenience is so accessible, affordable, and comfortable.

Anyways,
I'm just saying is that when problems occur, usually the answer is to simplify life.
That is a struggle in this country.
In whatever way I choose, I hope that I at least never become comfortable with my decision and never too scared of a lack of convenience to change my mind.

shalom.

Friday, July 09, 2010

Challenging

Last night Leah stated an observation about how I act with people.
I enjoyed it.
I can't really write it.
Some people may be offended/ take it the wrong way.

But I realized something from her comment.
She was absolutely right.
Hit it right on the head.

So I concluded:
I need to challenge myself more.


In the basic aspects of life.


I get depressed because I just stay alive instead of live life.
I merely expect something to happen.
This is so vague.
Sorry.
it's too challenging to write about how i should challenge myself.

shalom.

Tuesday, July 06, 2010