I'm still lost, still frustrated, still looking. I googled "brainstorming techniques". A website suggested that I think of what my hero, mentor, etc. would do in my situation.
That's been my problem this whole time.
Ever since the debt and sickness, I've asked what Jesus would do.
And, honestly and sadly, I don't see Jesus ever being in my situation.
I know that's a whole can of worms.
I know deep down that I HAVE to be wrong. I have to feel hope for this life, this world, this man.
I'm so blinded to my own.
I notice I ask people to call me out if they care for me; tell me if I'm doing anything wrong.
I think I'm just scared to decide for myself.
I get on this computer every week, looking for someone to make a decision for me.
I leave empty handed.
I don't want this.
I want more.
Shalom.
p.s. Insanity is doing the same thing over and over while expecting different results.
1 comment:
Hey Mr. Crohns,
I stumbled across your blog. Interesting for sure. I haven't had the time to look over it much, but you seem kind of down. I've been there too.
Hey, so you live in Indianapolis? I lived in Greenwood for a summer and then later on for a year. I also saw that you mentioned seminary. Did you actually go to seminary or just considered it? I am in seminary at the moment. Trying to get motivated to finish my last late paper.
Write back if you like. I'll pray for you today.
Joel
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