Not until the world is crumbling around us do we start listening for God.

My world has not been crumbling.

It has been building up.

Becoming comfortable.

Becoming tedious.

Becoming busy.

Becoming surreal.

My heart. My mind. My spirit.

Have not been building up at all.

I have less emotions, thoughts, prayers than I did the day before.

It's not until someone else's world begins to chip away that I realize I am lost.

I come up with no answers, no actions, no hope, no shalom.

I can only become what I make myself become.

I can curse myself and blame it on God.

I can find a good job and pay off debt.

I can worry about when I'm going to change the oil in my car.

I can wonder if it's possible to follow Jesus when I remain dependent on a bi-monthly infusion.

I can watch more inspirational movies.

I can ride my bike more.

I can go to restaurants to taste something I've never had.

I can sit around and drink beer with my friends.

I can write a blog and hope it's changing something in my thoughts.

I can be shalom, without being without.

I can.

shalom.