Yesterday was an better day than most, lately.

Things are seeming to get a little better.
I walked around the grocery store for half an hour (more like just leaned on the cart with as much as weight possible-- but I'll take what i can get).
I did dishes while standing up for about half an hour (and thought I was going to pass out afterwards).
I'm not bleeding as much and I don't have to take as many pain pills.
I just can't wait until I'm able to sit up without bleeding all over myself.
The doctor said he's not sure how long it will take to heal up.
I just want to be in a condition to have a job, honestly.
Loans, food, and trying to plan a wedding by the end of the summer seems impossible from my perspective at the moment.
I couldn't sleep last night.


Shalom.