OUCH!!!!!

The worst part about these fistulas, is if I'm not lucky, air forces its way through the fistula in my taint/chode area. This happend about 15 times in the past couple hours. I've been screaming out loud and crying. It hurts sofa king bad.
I was trying to fart, but my body wouldn't let me, then all of a sudden-- BAM! BAM! BAM! BAM! BAM!... BAM!.....BAM!
It would stop for like 30 seconds.
Then, I'm too paranoid to sleep, so I get on my house-mate's laptop. About 5 minutes later-- BAM! BAM!... BAM!... BAM! BAM!
The pain. All I can do is just scream and it's six in the morning. My house-mates are still sleeping.
Now, I'm just waiting to go to my infusion at 1:30.
I swear I'll crap and pee my pants before I let that air-crotch thing happen again. You have no idea how bad it hurts. Unless you stabbed that area with a steak knife real slowly.

shalom.