Getting Life Together/ Having Friends

It's weird coming back to the town where most of my friends are located
because I feel like I just want to be by myself.
I know that sounds bad.
I don't know why I am that way sometimes.
It might be because whenever it comes to getting my life together,
it seems like it's one of those things I have to do on my own.
(Which isn't right to say, but I had to leave Anderson before because I couldn't rely on my friends to keep me alive.)
And, I don't have them together yet, so maybe I'm just waiting until I can be a friend instead of someone who needs something from others (which I am, but it definitely feels better to pretend like I don't need charity).
I'm not saying I got sick because of my friends' carelessness.
It's not their fault. I didn't let them know enough about my condition.
I know I'm not correct for feeling this way,
but I'm just being honest to why I've been an absent friend.

I really do love my friends here.
But, I am weird.

hmmm...

yep.

shalom.