Maybe

now listening to: John Butler

Maybe it's because Leah is leaving for Indiana.
Maybe it's because depression is genetic.
Maybe it's because life is waiting.
Maybe it's because my search for the Messiah is hazy.
Maybe it's because my search for the Messiah is lazy.
Maybe it's because I don't have a job.
Maybe it's because time has phases.
Maybe it's because I'm greedy.
Maybe it's because we're all lost.
Maybe it's because I just think I'm lost.
Maybe it's because grad school seems a waste.
Maybe it's because it's hard to think of the future.
Maybe it's because ordinary is ordinary.
Maybe it's because I am blind.
Maybe it's because age helps to realize the unknowns.
Maybe it's because wisdom is fleeting in me.
Maybe it's because I started becoming a number
before I realized what it meant to be a number.
Maybe it's because maybe has filled my head,

but I'm still not sure about much at all.

shalom.

p.s.
Begin insomnia now...