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i am turning into a very thin thing, i am.
my dreams cover half the day lately.
i don't want to sit. i don't want to stand. i don't want to walk.
i want to lie on my side for days.
i want to sew the lips shut on every person that asks me for something.
i want to be invested into, wanted, given love.

i can only give so much to those around me.
but i am sick.
very sick.
i need given back once and a little while.

i am going home soon.
i am happy.

shalom.