And here my life is now becoming what it has so many times before-- a lonely wandering of a boy look for "the life". i want to find jesus again.
i saw her beautiful face turn around and place her shoes on the conveyer belt. Then she was gone. i turned around and drove home. The lonliness soaked in and i realized the fear of what my life is without her. i believe in the jesus that is written about in the new international version of the holy bible. i believe that God should be the main focus of my life, but i don't live it out.
i can't blame anyone or any place where i live or any circumstances for what happens with my own actions. i learned this the hard way from a pretty girl who basically told me that life is still a choice, no matter how hard.
now would be the time, right? what time? oh, the time to start living life fully out as if it were a dream that only a prayer could answer.
i will go to work. i will sleep. i will drink coffee late at night. i will find Jesus again. i will change the world.
1 comment:
hey ryan
ok seriously man it has been way too long. i would really like to talk with you. even if we dont end up talkin which is likely please know that i deeply care.
ash
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