now listening to: citizen cope

life is weird man.
i'll make a choice. i'll think it's a good choice, ya know? i look back and i'm thinking to myself, "what process of elimination made me decide that?"
It's like i'm coming to a y in the road. Which way do i choose? i choose a way, but then, it's not giving me that shalom, that all-peace, that i thought it would. i'm a people pleaser. i can't please everyone. Not even Christ could do that. People like you. People don't like you. That's the way it will always be. So, if i know that, then why can't i believe that in my heart?
These feelings wont go away...
They keep knockin' me sideways...
Thinkin' time will make them go away...

i am pretty sure we all have feelings like this. why? are we ALL making the wrong decisions? i don't think. why? i don't know. we ain't perfect. that's gotta be somewhere in the vast ocean of answers.

i don't know what i'm talkin' 'bout. we usually don't. either we are mindless machines or we are reverberating robots.
mr. dali lamas...
it won't be long before you're pullin' yourself away...

i need to start writing, start reading, start messin' stuff up, and start living for the answers in my life. what does that mean?
i don't know man.
i need to think... and sleep...
shalom.