Ha Ha

Now Listening to: Shawn Mcdonald playing distantly above me and Double Dare 2000 playing in the living room behind me.

I just read one of my first additions to this site from back in November. It was something written in an art class to define this charcoal picture I made of myself and describing why I did it in such a way. It's funny to read it now. It's funny to see how I think I am still that person, but deep down, I know I have been changed.
It is impossible not to change.
It's funny to see how I have not changed for the better. I guess it is more sad than funny.
Don't not be led astray; I am not losing my faith.
The fact is, did I ever really have "faith". In this American mind set, we have been raised to think that faith is a mind set. That is wrong. Faith is how we live. Faith is acting, for our actions show what we actually believe. Covering me in this mediocre Christianity that is thrown upon me like an oversized throw rug, weighing me down to the ground. Paralyzed.
Haha. Satan is definitely working in a different way then he used to. The mind is a powerful thing. Lies fed to me like, "Think about every small detail of how you are supposed to be perfect. Do not act first and find out by simply following what you have been taught".
Spiritual warfare is something I thought I believed in, but now I understand it is very true and very unnoticeable (for that is what the evil wants- for us not to know).
That's funny. That our minds can be used against us.
It is a little more sad than funny...

s h a l om.