Spontaneous Blog

now listening to: stephen covell

I haven't written for a while. That tends to happen when my brain gets all like "what the heck is going on?!?!?"... so yeah... i apologize

The summer of Chicago has ended... so sad. I met some of the greatest people I think I will ever meet in my life... and they are off to their places... geeze luise

Well, i'm back home and sooo bored. I feel so worthless here. I don't know what to do, so I just read and write and play and swim and sleep... Not too bad... but, the world is still out there just waiting for some of its enormous problems to be fixed, healed, etc.

I know a couple blogs I wrote, "just do something," and I'm starting to realize that it's harder than it seems. Does that mean I have the right to give up?? NEVER. If I'm to follow Christ, I need to pick up my cross (and not a little wussy one tied around my neck, but a huge, sucky, heavy, cutting cross) and carry it. God will supply all that I need as long as I believe (which is obeying) in him.

My brother is going to college and is going through a lot of drama. the poor kid. I just hope he's actually asking God's will for his life and not God's will for his relationship with his girlfriend and thinking that that's the same thing. No matter what, he's still a pretty awesome man of God.

School is going to start soon. Oh no. I graduate in December!! and have no stinkin' clue what i'm going to do!! suck. ehh... it's not like i had any clue in any advanced time before this time in my life anyways, and it's been good (great) so far, so whatever happens, happens.

I'm reading this book called, Black Like Me, and it rocks my face off! It's about this guy in the 50's and he takes this medication to make himself look like an African-american and moves to the south. True story! Isn't that sweet?!? I hope that I have the gahones to do something like that.

I was talking to my amiga ashley last night about a lot of stuff and i've come to some conclusions: 1. "The 5 love languages" is a dumb book. 2. I'm way too funny and pretend like I'm all good, when my head has a whole nother world going on, which people may actually like to hear about. 3. I've never had a real best friend- sad. 4. I don't really care that i've never really had a best friend- sad also. 5. God will supply ALL things-- happy:)

well, i don't want to ramble anymore.
shalom.