Life is rough. Right? But, if you ever think about it, someone else has it worse off then you. But, you've still got crap distracting you and taking up most of your thoughts, so what do you do? It sucks because I don't want it to bother me, because I want to focus on God more.
This summer internship has been crazy busy, I feel like whatever free time I get, I just use to sleep or just stress about these things in my life. Why am I so self-focused on my problems?
Not to mention the groups... Oh geeze, the groups...
They come in with their own agendas, not trying to being open to learning, being racist with their stereotypical remarks, and their rediculously ignorant leaders... Is it coincidence that I've had only two groups that I thought were good or am I bad at this job? It can't be all my fault- I've tried to open their eyes as much as I could... but, I guess only God can really do that.
I prayed this morning... Ya know-- "quiet time"... You know what I noticed? I was in the stinkin' woods and couldn't even get to somewhere where it was quiet! It was so rediculous. I ended up getting worse off than I was before... Then I thought about "alone time" with God and how I seem to suck at it. all I really seem to do is just talk to make myself feel better. Maybe that explains a lot of why I feel incomplete after those times.
The other hosts here are great to talk to (whether it be about funny or serious stuff). I love Chicago. the city is great, the people are great, etc.
well, I gots to get back to work... Shalom.
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