Estoy Llorando

So... I just watched a movie last night called "Invisible Children" ( www.invisiblechildren.com )... It's a documentary done by these three guys who go to Sudan to find more about the war going on over there, but find a much more interesting and sad story about these thousands of children who run for their lives every night so that the rebel armies will not abduct them, beat them, and brainwash them into killing others.
After I finished this movie I am so angry at myself and at other people who just waste money left and right to go to the movies, buy new clothes... trying to be more "comfortable"... then I feel dirty, I was almost about to throw up because I felt like I needed to wash myself from all the wrongdoings, ignorance, and arrogance within my life. Then I kept thinking about what I heard someone say a couple weeks earlier....

"The way to do what Jesus would do, is to look for things the way they shouldn't be and try to solve them"

And, sure enough, I found something that is the way it shouldn't be.
So, what can I do???
Of course I let all the size overflow my brain and fall into Satan's lies that "I can't do anything. It's too big of a problem." But, I forced myself past that. Then I came up with a list. A list to pray, to tell others of this problem, to talked to my school about the issue, to make art pieces, to raise money, to build this ideal, utopian kind of shelter, etc.
The fact is I just have to do something. And this is something for now. Is this all I will do? No. It can't be, because that won't solve what shouldn't be. If you read this, please go to the website. Please .tell somebody. Please give a crap enough to do something. I don't want to just sit on my fat butt and/or go out to the movie theater, out to eat, or buy a new whatever.

it's so sad the things we will do just to avoid guilt. It sickens me.

I pray that you don't do the same after reading this. I'm sick of our eyes and ears turning away to all this frickin' bullcrap that is going on! Pray that I Do Something Please! That I Buy less. Eat less. Give more.... more time... more money... more help... more awareness...

I probably have wasted my time writing this blog for the past 15 minutes, but I will hope that God will speak to you in some way and that you will start to break this disgusting, apathetic mold of what Christianity has become.

We do not need to be comfortable.
We do not need to be full.
We do not need to be clothed 50 times over.
We do not need to be entertained.
We do not need to "take a break".
We do not need to assume that someone else will do something about it.
We do not need to have extra anything.
We need to help and love others that have never seen help or love.

Shalom (which should not come to us until we follow the heart of God).