So... I broke up with Audrey. Wow. You may say (and I may even say sometimes) that I am an idiot. But, hear me out. We were talking about it and she asked me, "how did you first come to this?" I and I proceeded to explain that one of the people that I work with here in Chicago was asking me why I was I with Audrey. The only reason I could really come up with is that she was too awesome of a Christian for me to leave her. My friend asked me if not having a reason to break up with her was reason enough to stay with her.
Wrap her up in a package of lies. Send her off to a coconut islandI am not worried - I am not overly concerned.With the status of my emotions.Oh, she says, were changing. But were always changingIt does not bother me to say this isn’t love.
My head started swirling after that. It was so hard, becausemy heart was not feeling calm with my choice of staying together, but I was so scared (which I didn't know that I was at first) because I was afraid of being alone. I was holding on to this awesome girl, who couldv'e met someone better than me, just for my own fears.
You try to tell your self the things you try tell your self to make yourself forget to make your self forget. I am not worried.
I suck.
Shalom.
1 comment:
Ryan...that must have been hard, but its good that you are really sitting back and thinking about all of this. keep seeking the King!
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