and i'm sorry for all those things in me
and when i don't care i know you're
always there i just wanted to get this
started
and when i don't care i know you're
always there i just wanted to get this
started
I am useless. It is truly so sad. hahaha... I made my day productive, but still ended up being a lazy bum and just ended getting a really bad sunburn on my stomach.
I did some thinking though... How productive was that? Not very. It's all semantics and circles.
I thought about love and servanthood. How much do I love? How much of a servant am I?
I am a mooch. I have gotten by by everyone else. I know it's lazy, but a part of me says I'm being smart. Now, though, I think that I'm just ignorant to how lazy I am. I don't know. "It is hader for a rich man to enter the kingdom, than a camel to pass through the eye of a needle". I know that poverty of material things and money is going to be a part of my life. BUT, this world surrounding my every move and saturating my every thought tells me to earn a lot, get my "stuff", and "live it up". What the heck?? I swear I'm right... Jesus said if we want to be perfect, to give up everything and follow Him.
So, if I do that, then how do I live? eat? etc? By the GRACE OF GOD. What does that involve? Miraculous manna falling from the sky? Possibly, but I doubt it when God can just use the people around you and make you turn humble by asking others for food, a place to sleep, a t-shirt, or whatever.
Ya know what I think it is? I think poverty is so looked down upon and disgusting to America.
Ya know what else? I don't care what America thinks. God bless my "luck" to live in this nation and thank God for our freedom, but, honestly, America is screwed up and so prideful that she can't see the plank in her eye.
I did some thinking though... How productive was that? Not very. It's all semantics and circles.
I thought about love and servanthood. How much do I love? How much of a servant am I?
I am a mooch. I have gotten by by everyone else. I know it's lazy, but a part of me says I'm being smart. Now, though, I think that I'm just ignorant to how lazy I am. I don't know. "It is hader for a rich man to enter the kingdom, than a camel to pass through the eye of a needle". I know that poverty of material things and money is going to be a part of my life. BUT, this world surrounding my every move and saturating my every thought tells me to earn a lot, get my "stuff", and "live it up". What the heck?? I swear I'm right... Jesus said if we want to be perfect, to give up everything and follow Him.
So, if I do that, then how do I live? eat? etc? By the GRACE OF GOD. What does that involve? Miraculous manna falling from the sky? Possibly, but I doubt it when God can just use the people around you and make you turn humble by asking others for food, a place to sleep, a t-shirt, or whatever.
Ya know what I think it is? I think poverty is so looked down upon and disgusting to America.
Ya know what else? I don't care what America thinks. God bless my "luck" to live in this nation and thank God for our freedom, but, honestly, America is screwed up and so prideful that she can't see the plank in her eye.
was it attraction or just a fraction of
your time was it a moment just to
show that you're alive
your time was it a moment just to
show that you're alive
Man, I had a really good conversation on the phone last night and I realized something. Something about fear. Something about what it's all about. Something about friendship. Something about choices. Something about consequences. Something about inevitability. Something about sucking it up and realizing what life involves. Something about being a man.
A lot of somethings, a lot of everythings.
A lot of somethings, a lot of everythings.
Do you get it?
What is there to get you say?
hehe... if you can't answer that,
you can't be perfect, whole, and complete.
Shalom.
you can't be perfect, whole, and complete.
Shalom.
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