Circle Circle, Dot Dot

Now listening to: Hide Nothing by Further Seems Forever

Run and Hide
Don't Hide at all

Well, this Saturday we had "Real World at the Cottage". It wasn't really anything like Real World (because we weren't being video taped the whole time), except the confessional room. I can't complain though because I got to hang out with my friends, got to relax, and got to eat something like vomit pudding.

Well, life is good. Life is great. I'm really siked about this semester. I have awesome Bible classes, I'm going to France for spring break (with fine young woman that I am very interested in), I have an awesome floor to be an R.A. on, I think I'm beginning to understand responsibility and discipline and what it's supposed to be in my life, I'll get to get involved with the prison ministry finally, I'm gonna try to learn French, when it's over (the semester) I'll be a senior, and hopefully, I'll have this cool job with Center for Student Missions for the summer. It just seems like a good time in my life.

Like a light from above
you've seen the way I've been living under ground

So last night me, Emily, and Audrey were hanging out and talking and Audge gave us these little psychological questions. Ya know... The ones that are really weird and are supposed to suggest how you view yourself, how others view you, and view other things in your life... Well, well, well... We didn't really know how to translate the "answers", but we did try translate them anyways... It made me laugh, smile, blush, and think... About who I am and how I'll try my spouse and how I'll live life... And it made me think... Is it me, or do we try to always translate things towards our own perception of things? I notice this especially in the Christian community, because we'll always relate movies, songs, etc. To the Gospel of Christ. Are we wrong for doing that? Is that relating "secular"(which is that which is trying to push God out) too to the Gospel? Or does that just show how much we are in love with God? (Like the saying, "you know you love somebody when you start to see their face everywhere") If a person were trying to give the "right" answer, they may, without hesitation, say it was the second choice. I try not to answer the question too quickly, for I do not want to think I am better than I am.

And it won't be long now.

And in time you'll find out...

This heart is yours.

Let it bleed.

Chapter V of My Most Memorable Moments

Magic Tricks. Throughout middle school, I picked up a huge fascination for magic tricks. I don't know why really. Maybe I needed the attention. Maybe it was the only thing that I "had". Everyone else had something they were good at... I would spend hours at a time learning how to perfect a trick so that I could go to school and show off to all of the other kids. I'll admit-- I got pretty good. Like everything in my life, though, I did not try to become really good at it.

It stinks that that's the way I naturally am. Unwilling, unmotivated, and lazy. I talked with a very cool girl about this and I told her that I'm that way because my parents never really forced me to do anything or pursue anything. But, ya know what? The only one to blame. Or am I? Predestination vs. Free will. A conversation that seems to have no end. I'm not to say I support one more than the other. All I know is that it appears that I have control of my present actions, so why don't I act like it. nevermind...

Shalom.