Behold. The Power of Cheese.

Now listening to: Pretend You're Alive by Lovedrug

The blog has thus to returned to its regular schedule once again!
So, I'm back to campus...Back to my dorm room....Precious dorm room...We've had so many memories together-- wait. No we didn't, cuz I'm a lazy bum. I hope we will have many memories together this semester...
Okay...Change subject... I've been reading Joshua Harris books...So bear with me... It's so funny how nervous a person can make you... Even when you know that that person wouldn't judge you, you still feel like you need to perform your "best" for that person. Well, that's not the real you. Agreed? I think I've realized that the "best" me, isn't so great... But what does that matter?? Me impressing her just proves how selfish and greedy I am. I love and follow Christ wholeheartedly. That means it's not about me. It's all about glorifying God. That means blessing others. Especially when it's someone I am interested in. How dare I try to take that person's eyes off of God? This is a really different area of humility I've discovered in my life.
We need to glorify God, then, in turn, also bless each other, so that each of us may glorify God more...
BAM. "please buckle your seatbelt."
I need some work. Some? I mean a lot. I need to grow up and be responsible. I'm the epitome of someone labeled "Christian". I grew up under Christian settings, but grew up so dysfunctional. "Jesus loves the all the little children," supposedly was my ticket and I didn't have to do anything else because, "hey, no one's perfect." Pfft... God will just forgive me anyways, but how will I forgive myself?
BAM. "we're experiencing a little turbulence, no need to panic, but please stay seated."
Little did I know. Little did I know.... I committed the worse sin of all. I KILLED GOD. God does not "just forgive me". Jesus made himself forsaken-- He took my sin. Everyone of them. He made himself dirty. Guilty. Sinful. For what I had done. "For the Glory of God."
BAM. "we've lost cabin pressure."
Prayer. I love it. But I didn't realize how powerful it was when used correctly. I realized I needed to take action and live accordingly also....Ohhh.... duh ryan.
I feel like the problems I talk about on my blog are so repetitive...
All I know is, though, that to give God glory is what it's ALL about. And if that's repetive to you, sorry. DON'T YOU GET IT? If you do, "Multiply it by infinity, and take it to the depth of forever, and you will still have barely a glimpse of what I'm talking about."
Shalom.