love the way it needs to be

talked to three girls tonight (whose names i won't mention)...but i realized something great.
we're wanting and expecting of someone else before we're wanting and expecting of ourselves. don't ask me to explain this in a journal (unless you like reading blabling stupidity). We need to ask, "Who am i?" and, "Who does God want me to be?" And after those are answered, we can ask, "Who does God want for me?" Which will already be answered by the first two.
Now, i'm not that smart, but this stuff is good, right? If you don't think so, give me at least a week before you shoot me down. I have had burdens lifted off my heart and i am on cloud nine.

P.S. Do my journals suck? Or do i write too often? Cuz i looked at nick best's blog, and everyone is commenting to him. I'm sorta jealous...i need attention. It's who i am. (not really...but seriously i love when people look at me and laugh at my jokes....just kidding, i only live for an audience of three-- Father, Son, and Holy Spirit... just kidding, it's Nick best, God, and Ben Christofis...not really, it's just God... but i wish you would comment....it's okay, you don't have to...but, seriously, if you don't do it, my loneliness will build up so much that i will cry myself to sleep)